We made it! We made it to Stockholm, finally! During the past year while waiting for my Visa to come through I left my job as a recruiter, gave up our apartment in Manhattan, moved home to Richmond for a month, then moved to Stockholm for almost three months, moved back to NYC to a corporate apartment in Midtown, started working part-time at my former company, taught yoga classes and took over 200-hours of yoga training, moved to another corporate apartment in Midtown, then moved back to Richmond, and last Friday arrived in a corporate apartment here in Stockholm. But wait, there's more! We are moving to another, and then potentially another corporate apartment in Stockholm before hopefully, finally buying our own home in the Spring of 2016.
For the past year, I have been anticipating the arrival of my Visa, nervous about flying across the ocean with my 10-year old dog, and excited about starting my life in a foreign country. Now that we are actually here (and Pablo did great on the journey over!), I am waiting to receive my Personal Number so that I can get a paying job, enroll in language classes, receive healthcare, and pay taxes (woo!). It seems like my life has been in a perpetual state of waiting for as long as I can remember.
While I was fortunate enough to teach yoga and even be hired back part-time at my former company in NYC, I have not been able to commit to any sort of 'career move' because of my recent gypsy lifestyle. One of the reasons I was so amped about moving and receiving my Visa is that I could finally start making career decisions - I can insert myself as a real potential long-term, full-time, yoga teacher! Well, after I receive my Personal Number in 4-6 weeks.
All of this moving, transition, waiting, has been tough. One afternoon in NYC, I was listening to Magic Lessons - a Podcast by Elizabeth Gilbert (the author of Eat, Pray, Love) and her message was spot on. She was speaking about how many of us, at one time or another, are waiting for some future event to happen - whether it be tangible or not. We wait until we lose 10 pounds, until we make enough money to finally be happy, until we quit that job and start pursuing our passion, until we get married so we can finally feel settled -- you get the picture. While we are doing all of that waiting and telling ourselves "when" and "until then", life is whirling by us. Even Ferris Bueller knows that, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."
Bueller was on to something and for me, keeping a regular yoga and meditation practice helps the body and mind stay in the present moment. This moment, right now, is the only thing that is real - the future is made of dreams and the past of memories.
Recently, after a long walk with Pablo and a short meditation session, I pulled out my Medicine Cards for a bit of inspiration and insight. I decided to draw a the Moon Lodge Spread which "is a mirror of your own personal unconscious" (if this is getting too out-there for you just stay with me, I promise!). The final, "central' card that I drew indicated 'the power shield of the True Self...the card of the circle of knowing the Within, the taproot of your personal consciousness" - sounds pretty deep, right? I drew the Ant - which I thought was a little underwhelming at first but Ant was just what I needed! The card description goes on to say that, "if Ant meandered into your spread today, it is time to show a little trust and patience in some life situation. You may have forgotten that you will always receive that which you need, at the time you need it most. If it is not on the horizon or just around the next anthill, you may need to use some strategy. How can you put to use your power of creation until "it" arrives - whatever "it" means to you at this time?"
Right on, little ant! Sometimes, the most subtle medicine is indeed the most powerful.